The short answer to why I quit being a co-founder of a startup I really cared about is the startup didn’t care about me. I really did care about this thing we call a startup. I believed the startup could be a vehicle for positive change in the world. I quit my relatively cushy well paying job and put my family in jeopardy to pursue a dream of starting something that made a difference.
Everybody in the startup world tries to quantify and distil what it means to be a good founder, entrepreneur, a first employee in a startup. The truth is it’s a complicated convergence of many different factors. I found there was not a lot of emphasis on what it truly means to be a better company, business or organization. For all the talk about giving back and company culture; giving was not really a priority in the startup, I co-founded.
When we first started we created a company OS describing what was important to us as co-founders. This was supposed to guide our hearts and minds. But what I quickly found is a race against time and money. The pressure that ensues quickly pushes the company OS to the sideline and becomes a forcing function on personality, habits and dogmatic beliefs about how things should be done.
When we were in an accelerator program we quickly got into a practice of berating each other for saying the same word too much or overusing certain words because some people on the team felt it made us sound dumb. I came to hate this practice very quickly and started to feel resentful. I did not express this clearly, partially because I didn’t want to rock this fragile boat we called a team and partially because I knew there were bigger problems.
I guess it boils down to the fact that “we” as a company, organization, and individuals did not practice what we preached. I just didn’t see how we could affect change in a broken system if we could not take care of each other. This startup was and maybe still is becoming part of the broken system it was attempting to fix. Greed and mistrust seemed to be the tenants on which decisions were made.
If we can’t truly be better to each other when we are working so closely together and we’ve all sacrificed so much together. If we can’t empathize and sympathize with each other when we spend more time together than we spend with our families. I truly don’t know how we can make this a better place to live.
My experience in the startup world was not ideal and maybe no one’s experience is ideal. It really was more about watching your back; crossing your T’s and dotting your contractual I’s. I wish it was more about solving a problem making a positive change and the rewards will come to the ones who do.




